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I walked out of the small music room, trying to leave all the overpopulated butterflies in my stomach. The thought of finally doing it after weeks of practice never fail to make my hands exeptionally tremble.
I walked passed the gate,then the garden,then few more steps,...I'm few minutes away.
I told her I'd fetch her in a fastfood chain nearby. And now, I was there. And i was silently panicking. I stopped for a while,then sighed,trying to exhale all the nervousness away.
I saw her siting outside,she looked very tired,all sweating. But still beautiful. By then I started to wonder how long I kept her waiting.
By the time she saw me,she started complaining about everything(as expected). I just smiled. She told me she wanted an apple pie so I bought her, I got a burger meal for myself. After we ate I asked her to follow me. She's clueless about what will happen next.We entered the gate, then upstairs,then to the music room.Heartbeats.

Inside sits an old upright piano. I sat on the stool facing the piano then I let her sit on the chair next to me.
Her mesmerizing eyes were looking at me in perplexity.
I looked at her and I laughed softly to disguise the nervousness.Then I faced the piano again and played.

I played canon in D,'twas our favorite.While playing, I remember how lucky I am to have her and the good times we celebrated.I remembered also the sprains I had in several practices,but I didn't care,'cause right there and right then,through the magic of music I'm telling her how far she'd gone in touching my life,in touching me as a person and how I really appreciated her.I played canon so many times in front of so many different people, but it's only now that it served its purpose,right there in her presence.

I played the chorus,then the 2nd chorus,and sweetly ended it.My whole being trembling.

Though my music babbled a lot,I really did try to let her hear what every note of my music was saying.And when I turned to look at her,I know she did.I felt a connection of 2 souls at that moment.I'm loving it.
The feeling of making a person feel special through playing her a piano piece just for her is very wonderful. I think I made her feel so happy,in fact I thought she's gonna cry.But she didn't.She was just soulfully,sweetly smiling at me.

She's worth the muscle pain of practice and the time and the effort and the patience of learning to play the piano. It was actually my first piano piece and it's dedicated only for her.She needs to feel that she is special because I think she isn't aware of the fact.The thing is she really is special. She simply is special.I love her.

One day I'm dreaming of playing the black and white keys for her,in a place where everybody and nobody is present,..I'll play for her in outerspace.

boxed.

soul-melting melodies there is,
echoing the coldness of the four corners
of my old music box. desire there is,
fear there is, weaknesses there are lots.
something tells me i still don't know
the language of love and music.
I babble a lot.
willingness there is, falters there are lots.
so i keep them inside my music box,
just so to soothe the wanted and the unwanted.
I hide them, and fool myself.
something tells me I'm still immature to deal
with the fancy things called love and music.
the promise of an indescribable
beautiful feeling there is,
trust there is,
faith there is,
guilt there are lots.
and guilt is a dangerous thing to deal with.
when guilt there is, peace there is none
and who can stand such?
but then there is still a much powerful
thing that keeps me from holding on.
a music that is pure inside out.
I know not how to contain.
so i hide them altogether inside my
dust-gathering, soul-purifying music box.
WE elude and never to come back again
'til the blows of the wind teach us
how to open the eyes of our hearts...
and give in.

how to fly.

how to fly?
how do you get the utmost feeling of flying?
where you cannot feel your sole stepping on the ground
and the wind will be gentle and sound
i'll bring you with me
we'll both stumble at first
but soon will learn the ways of the wind
and dance all day 'til we fall.
while lying on the fading cumulus
to the moon and the stars we'll make a phone call
one by one they shine just for us
the moon will deliver us the black and white keys
you'll sit on cassiopea
i'll play sweet canon just for you
or i'll play any symphony you want
by then i'll be the finest pianist on planet
and you're the sweetest symphony of mine
the heavenly bodies will be impressed
in fact, they will feel like crying
for they hear the most soulful music
in their entire heavenly body life.
they'll be grateful but they won't interupt
because the night is destined just for you and me
we'll fly steadily in silence feeling wonderful.

not noticing we're already flying.
yes, learning how to fly is wonderful
but flying itself is another wonderful story.

bato-bato-pik

maglaro tayo ng bato bato pik
maganda ito at masaya ang proseso
gunting ,papel,bato ang pagpipilian
isiping maigi kung ano ang susunod na papalitan

masayang laro ito na para sa dalawang tao
ikaw at ako
sabay ang kumpas ng mga kamay
magkakabungguan at tatawa tayo
na para bang tayo lang ang tao sa mundo

kung sino ang makaka-iskor hanggang lima
siya ang panalo

kung mananalo ako pipitikin kita sa tenga
tapos iiyak ka dahil nasaktan ka
at malulungkot ako dahil umiyak ka
hihingi ako ng tawad
pero sisisihin mo ako dahil sa pagsisimula
ng masayang laro na ito
tapos magkagalit tayong uuwi ng bahay.

maglalaro tayo ng bato bato pik
maganda ito at masaya ang proseso
pero sa huli parehas tayong talo.

ano game?

condolence counter-clockwised.

jairus: anak ko patay na. hindi ko matanggap.
Jesus: faith pare, faith.
jairus: oo nga e, anong gagawin ko?
Jesus: ganito nalang,uhmm...isipin natin na natutulog lang siya tsaka kelangan lang ng pahinga kase pagod.tapos magigising din maya-maya.
jairus: astig! pre, salamat.
Jesus: wala yun. tara gisingin na natin.
jairus: =]

sonador

So now the reason why I'm doing this
Is for you,for your information
Yes,I seldom take actions
I cannot cross out my norms
And so, I always miss
But doesn't mean I don't care at all
And to love you never,that, I can't recall

Reminiscin' history whatsoever
Calculating hearts and minds whenever

Having learned all that took place
I closed ears,slept,then regret
Mind over matter,cheat the mind
Still the best for you,I hardly find
But doesn't mean I don't care at all
And to love you never,that, I can't recall

Reminiscin' history whatsoever
Calculating hearts and minds whenever

jessi

okay so who in the weirdest planet earth is jessi?the full name i know is Jessica Konig,but she likes to be called jessi so i prefer jessi.:)
what i know certainly is that she is my german cousin whom i've met personally once 7 years ago.i remember playing with her way back then but she doesn't.=D.(what matters anyway?haha)

but i met jenny(her sister) just a few months ago when they had their vacation here. i got her ym when they returned in germany.the moment we started conversation it wasn't jenny but jessi.(sort of a serendipity whatever.)well my first impressions were:sweet,kind,considerate,deep,matured,smart,lovely and some sort of good stuffs.
but as we get along i've deleted almost all of them,i mean almost...!at least the word LOVELY still remains so far....or still waiting to be deleted?haha:)

since then ym is our rendevous.

she has a dog formerly named lady,but now his name is edward.(that,i thought,was also interesting.;)

hmm what else?she likes paramore(and i come to like it either!) in which she patterns her hair almost every week.she introduces me to lots of creepy music,and most of them i don't like(i have to admit not my kind of music huh.:)but what surprised me is that she has learned to introduce me to my kind of music most of the time now.and what gorgeous music there is.(thumbs up=])

she can be very naturally funny and stunningly interesting.but whenever she tries to tell a joke my natural response is to drop jaw,raise one brow and stare blankly at the computer screen.o_o
haha.i mean i couldn't really afford to get it.very interesting because we are of different culture yet we still manage to work the bestfriendship out.;).

she is complex and simple at the same time.complex because she is moody and fast in changing mind.simple because she is easy to understand for she cannot lie,that means she says whatever is in her mind.one of her friends told her that she is BRUTALLY HONEST but i prefer PERFECTLY BLUNT.hehe.hmmm.confusing huh?

but i know i still have to know more though i know one secret.=]
and i can still write some more but this is getting long so i'll stop now.

so that's it.=]